the f.r.i.e.n.d.s affair

do i stand good with something solid under the feet? should i hide behind a rock or bend and sway and excape the storm of difficulties that come my way, or should i walk towards it holding my flag high? for 'flag', i meant...my goals and my ambitions.
woah wait a sec... is this ross geller talking in my head again?
i am joey remember...the one with the food and the sleep. am i day dreaming?

"well chayan you are a number 7 and i think number 7s are either too ambitious or they are too laid back and relaxed." someone told me in class.
"so which one am i?" i asked.
"its for you to decide...its what you choose to be...you can be laid back and be happy about it or you can choose and make the quick sand under your feet stable"

i give a tiny little rats ass! i thought...why do they all have to say the same things put in different words?

so one day joey decides that he should be moving to a new apartment and be staying on his own for a while. its hard for him to say goodbye to his best friend chandler. but he stands his ground and decides that he should 'grow up' and 'move along':

JOEY: Can we drop this? I am not interested in the guy's apartment.
CHANDLER: Oh please, I saw the way you were checking out his mouldings. You want it.
JOEY: Why would I want another apartment, huh? I've already got an apartment that I love.
CHANDLER: Well it wouldn't kill you to say it once in a while.
JOEY: Alright, you want the truth? I'm thinkin' about it.
CHANDLER: What?
JOEY: I'm sorry. I'm 28 years old, I've never lived alone, and I'm finally at a place where I've got enough money that I don't need a roommate anymore.
CHANDLER: Woah, woah, woah. I don't need a roommate either, OK? I can afford to live here by myself. Ya know, I may have to bring in somebody once a week to lick the silverware.
JOEY: What're you gettin' so bent out of shape for, huh? It's not like we agreed to live together forever. We're not Bert and Ernie.
CHANDLER: Look, you know what? If this is the way you feel, then maybe you should take it.
JOEY: Well that's how I feel.
CHANDLER: Well then maybe you should take it.
JOEY: Well then maybe I will.
CHANDLER: Fine with me.
JOEY: Great. Then you'll be able to spend more quality time with your real friends, the spoons.

allright back to the point i never started...ahem...well what happened is, a friend adviced me:

"dude you know your weak points and you are brave enough to admit them, and something is 'terribly' good about it y'know?"he said.

i think:

being reserved is good. people keep on wondering whats wrong with you but when you come out good indeed, they still kinda keep on wondering how did you come out that neat!!

being patient is not always good...cause if u dont jump to conclusions sometimes, you might keep on waiting forever!!

and why the hell should you have to pretend to make people happy when they love you so much for what you actually are!!

"theres a child in every man"
it brings out their true nature. he becomes fearless. and has "i give a damn to the whole world whos watchin me" kind of an attitude.
when i was i child i didnt know abut the consequences if i did this and if i did that. i didnt know any rules. there was no fear within me. i did outrageous things as a child and those very thoughts scares the hell out of me now whenever i contemplate. but thats the way it is for everyone.

even for the all grown up brother and sister( ross-monica) duo's duel when ross comes over at monicas to be with his girlfriend rachel, who was putting up at monicas place:

MONICA: I wanna watch Entertainment Tonight.
ROSS: Tough noogies, we're watching Predators of the Serengetti.
RACHEL: Would you guys stop.
MONICA: It's my TV.
ROSS: Wha-, oh, quit it.
MONICA: Bite me.
RACHEL: Oh my God.
ROSS: Well, Monica keeps changin' the channel.
MONICA: Oh that's great, why don't you tell mommy on me.
RACHEL: Now I'm mommy in this little play? Alright look, I refuse to get sucked into this like, weird little Geller dimension thing OK. So I'm gonna go and take a nice long hot bubble bath because you kids are driving me crazy.

so there you go. a complete mixture of nothing...but so much to think about.

oh btw joey comes back in a couple of episodes when he learns the hard way that he's nothing w/o his best friends....so that is me actually...and i am so glad that joey is not so foolish afterall, eh? so its not that hard a thing to get ur point across huh? when u actually take your refuge in f.r.i.e.n.d.s

newe i will write some more of such random realities...just picking up just about any episode from my best f.r.i.e.n.d.s...and did i mention that my best friends are joey and phoebe? :)