Born Again

That was again tempting,
But i said no!
I perspired...i cried a bit…
And touched the trigger for once
All this while i have been dreaming of this,
But don’t know what happened to me now.

My hands didn’t move,
But i wanted them to.
Suddenly i felt two strains in me
Fighting against each other;
Which one is me i wondered?
But there came no answer
I was left wondering…
I felt sick…
Something inside me was about to burst!
I looked down to where my stomach was
I felt dizzy...i lost consciousness...
And then finally i succumbed…

But is it really done...
No beat in my temple, no rush in my veins...
I felt a lot lighter now...
As if i cud fly...
There i was lying with my crimson blood...
All fresh and pure...
But what happened to me now...

"Didn’t u hear the bang?
Didn’t it come from his study?"
"He is dead...oh lord why?"
"Why, oh...let the angels have him now
He was a noble soul”
I stood there still,
Listening to their every word.
Peter and Dew felt terrible for the loss
But i had wronged them all…
Long before they'd forgiven me,
But now i don’t feel sad
On seeing tears in their eyes,
As they loved me, I was their son...

But the son was freed at last
But his soul? What will become of it?
I blinked and felt something warm
Drop on my folded hands…
A tear?
Were souls allowed to cry?
I wondered...
No answer again…

But then as i had expected,
A brilliant light blinding my eyes
Came crashing down from the stars;
It engulfed me within
And into the blue tunnel i found my soul
Treading on the labyrinthine written paths.
I had read them so many times in my mortal life
"No end has it got" some would say
And now...
The whole act i realized was in vain
As i could see another womb
All ready to be born again...